What I've decided...

I've come to realize that what I have in front of me is absolutely beautiful.

My age; I'm so young and so full of life and so eager to live out everything.

I'm only 18 and yes, everything still feels like the end of the world to me,

but I've decided that this is a good thing, at least for now. Beyond this point

I'm not sure what my life will be like when I don't have those things to absolutely

ruin my days or make me unbelievably happy. We're all still young and all still

beautiful. I think we should enjoy our time and our youth. Maybe I'm into histrionics

but you know what? I live for this.

Trinity Alps.

So i went backpacking the other weekend for the first time. I must say, this is not a task that is easily done, but definitely worth it. It was snowing and 30 degrees a majority of the time. I couldn't feel my hands for most of the trip and I'm not going to lie sometimes I wanted to cry because my hands and my feet hurt so bad. Thank you poor circulation! I was not prepared for snow, but I made the best of things and didn't let anything phase me. All in all it there was only 30 miles done on the trip which probably doesn't like a lot to everyone for one weekend, but when its in the snow and you're wearing a backpack and weighs half as much as you it's pretty difficult. I'm just really sad that I don't have any pictures from the trip... since no one in my group had a camera =/ but hey i remember images pretty well! but I suppose now I'm not able to share the memory with anyone else. Oh well! But in case you were wondering the photo to the left is actually where I was on the Pacific Crest Trail, Toad Lake. Just picture that... covered in snow and you get the idea :) Oh and I had to hike all the way down there from above those mountains TOUGH STUFF I am for sure a weakling.

Cycling Diaries II

Well... I almost hit a deer the other day.... it was pretty weird.
I think the deer might have been retarded though because honestly
I don't understand how I was able to get that close without it running away.
I'm pretty sure I got more scared than the poor deer.
No more day dreaming while riding my bike. I guess thats one really cool
thing about Chico, that I can actually have the problem of almost hitting
a deer on my bicycle :D


Anyway I'm at home right now and it's been so nice.
I just want to stay here forever. Where everything is familiar.